Preparing to let go

W H E N Y O U L E T G O, S O M E T H I G S T A R T S T O S H I F T

How did I prepare to let go?

The feeling that I needed to change and move on was so strong within me that I couldn't ignore it.

I approached it with curiosity and interest, as if it were an unknown subject. I threw a bunch of questions at it, tried to connect with it, and examine it. I asked things like: Why are you here? What can I do for you? Why do I feel the way I do? I had to be honest with myself and describe in detail how I truly felt. And what I really felt was unhappy, lonely, disinterested, imbalanced, disconnected, lost, tired... and more.

Then I went deeper: Why do I feel tired? What makes me feel lonely? What exactly am I disconnected from? I played it all out in my mind, putting the puzzle pieces together. In this case, I was the puzzle that needed to be worked on—and the answers began to come, some within minutes. Others surfaced later. In fact, some realizations may still be unfolding even now, six months on. But I’d say within a week, I knew enough to clearly recognize what I didn’t want.

That’s when I began to explore what I did want. I identified the feelings I desired and started brainstorming ways to create those feelings for myself—like listening to Howard Stern interviews, watching a twin flame reading, visiting my favourite market, going for a jog, or reaching out to close friends. I turned those ideas into actions, just to see what changes they might bring.

This time, though, I knew something deeper was going on—something tied to my twin flame. I felt that a cycle had ended. Actually, it felt like two cycles had ended: a larger one in my life’s journey, and a smaller one in my twin flame journey. The universe created a situation that made me feel unlike myself, and through that discomfort, I grew. It pushed me to make changes and move toward something better—which is still in the works.

All in all, facing my feelings and deciding to let go of the things that once held me together—things that were safe and comfortable, but ultimately unhealthy and bitter—took about four months.

To Sum Up: How I Prepared to Let Go

1. Emotional ObservationRecognise the feelings and emotions—don’t suppress them! Welcome the feelings, give them your attention.

2. Mental WorkExamine those emotions with brutal honesty. Reflect on what caused them by piecing the puzzle together.

3. Physical InputMake the effort to act. Put your ideas for change into motion. Don’t let fear get in the way—just do it!

   
   

Once I made the decision to leave, I stuck to it. The only person who could have changed my mind was my twin. But as I mentioned earlier, he wasn’t ready—and I love him for being honest with me about that. (He told me in a message that he wasn’t ready to open up.) Now we’re starting a new chapter, a new cycle—this time with me no longer present in the 3D.

I’ve come to understand that “letting go” doesn’t necessarily mean physical separation. Especially in twin flame connections, letting go is more about releasing control, chasing, and expectations. You stop obsessing over your twin and what they’re doing, and you let go of the need to influence them or pull them toward you. You simply allow them to be, and you trust that if and when they’re ready, they’ll come back to you—just like children finding their way home.

Let the universe take over.I know surrendering can feel unnatural—especially when your instincts are screaming the opposite. It’s hard to let go of someone you love deeply. Like a parent letting their child go, you want to be part of every experience, but you can’t always be there. Some lessons they need to face on their own. I’ve experienced this firsthand too. 😜

The love you feel for your twin isn’t going anywhere. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up on them.

The feeling of “letting go” happens naturally. Don’t force it if you’re not there yet. Everything in this journey unfolds in divine timing, so don’t go chasing answers. Stay tuned in to your feelings—this connection is deeply emotional, and your intuition will always guide you. Trust it.

To make the process easier, find healthy distractions.Positive, nurturing, and uplifting activities raise your vibration and support your healing. Depending on your personality, dive into things that make you feel curious, excited, or peaceful. Try something new: take a dance class, paint, watch a funny movie, listen to inspiring music, treat yourself to a massage, or take a spontaneous trip. It’s helpful to find something ongoing—or a combination of several things—because one-off activities might bring only temporary relief. Keep up the nurturing distractions!

For me, I chose travel (and writing!) as my outlet because the environment I lived in—London—had begun to affect me negatively. I needed a change. I also felt I needed to put physical distance between myself and my twin, because otherwise, I would’ve kept secretly hoping for his attention. I didn’t have anyone else around me I truly connected with on a soul level, and that loneliness was heavy.

But that doesn’t mean you have to move to let go.If you’re surrounded by friends or family who you trust and who make you feel loved, you might not need a big change. Stay in tune with yourself. The experience of letting go is unique for each of us.

What else did I do in the physical preparation to let go?

I got rid of my unwanted belongings. Some I sold, some I sent back to my parents’ place, and others I donated to charities or gifted to friends. I also said yes to working extra hours and saved up as much money as I could. I felt safe hitting the road with £3,000 in preparation, so I asked the angels for that amount—and sure enough, I had more or less £3,000 when I left.

I also took the time to clean and organise the folders on my computer and free up space. I unsubscribed from all the mailing lists I had been following from time to time—these had served my creative interests while living in London, but I knew they wouldn’t support me on my new journey.

Lastly, I updated my technical equipment and bought some new parts to ensure everything would run smoothly and efficiently while I was on the move.

These are the technical stuff I travel with + my phone!

I also needed to find a replacement tenant which was not the best timing in mid-summer as most people try to save up for their holiday instead of investing in moving but I trusted and I found someone, yeay!

My room before and after

I went to the dentist for a final check-up and teeth cleaning. I also visited the hair stylist to even out the tones in my hair so it would still look good as the roots grow out—since I don't want to deal with my hair while I’m away. When I got home, I realised my hair looked exactly like it did almost two years ago when I met my twin. That small detail felt symbolic to me, like a sign that a cycle had finished.

I feel like I’ve done everything in my power—everything I was spiritually guided to do—for our connection. Now, it’s his turn to do what he is guided to do. I’m placing it all in the hands of the Universe. If the world, the Earth, and humanity truly need us to be together, then the Universe needs to start working on him—and maybe even kick his ass into gear for our union. As for me, I’m taking a well-deserved break after all the emotional and energetic work I’ve put in. Sunshine reggae. 😎

I'm no longer pouring my feelings and attention into my twin unless he opens up and communicates. This connection should be mutual. No one wants to work for years without a salary!~ Oops... I think that might be my ego speaking here... ~

But that “nobody” is actually me! I did work for many years for free—as a fashion assistant—but the difference was, it never felt like work. I genuinely loved what I was doing, and the experience itself felt like a reward. My CV looked amazing, filled with exciting roles in the industry. That was my “salary.”

In the Twin Flame journey, though, I don’t see my “salary” yet. I’m not enjoying the experience. And interestingly, I’ve noticed parallels between the fashion industry and this TF journey: rejection, lies, lack of loyalty, ungratefulness, and the feeling of being taken advantage of. But here’s the difference: my twin is doing this to my soul, whereas in the fashion world, those things were more superficial—like a performance. (No offense, fashion people!) The drama there felt theatrical. But this journey? It’s real. It’s sacred.

I was there for my twin—in 5D and in 3D, whenever he allowed it—with an open heart and unconditional support. And now, I can let go. Or at least... take a break. 😂 It’s incredible how the little signs and details shape the path.

Interestingly, in the last few weeks before I travelled, I felt more connected to him. It felt like he was drawing closer—not physically, not in 3D, but energetically. I didn’t have any tangible proof, but the feeling was strong. Then I watched a Twin Flame reading on YouTube, and the masculine energy was described as “charging forward.” That gave me chills. I thought: “If I feel like a cycle has ended, he must feel it too. Maybe he’ll reach out.”

And the next day... he texted me. ❤️

I find it fascinating how he denies his soul, yet still allows it to guide him—at least sometimes. I wonder... is it true that he can hear me in 5D? And if so, how does he experience that connection? What form does it take for him? Why is it that he can hear me, but I can’t hear him? Apparently, the unawakened twin can sense the awakened one... but not the other way around.

What else did I do?

I visited my favourite places: Columbia Flower Market, Brick Lane, Shoreditch High Street on the last sunny Sunday and had a feel-good day! Below is a short video of my Brick Lane walk. If you listen carefully, you'll hear a "coincidental" message "You can get it, if you really want it"!!!!!!!!!! :)

t else did I do?

I visited some of my favourite places one last time: Columbia Road Flower Market, Brick Lane, and Shoreditch High Street. It was a sunny Sunday—perfect for a feel-good day. 🌞 I just soaked in the atmosphere, the colours, the sounds... Below is a short video from my walk down Brick Lane. If you listen carefully, you’ll hear a “coincidental” message playing in the background: “You can get it, if you really want it.” How amazing is that?! A sweet little sign from the Universe. ✨

As I prepared to leave the old behind, I slowly shifted the focus from the twin flame connection back to myself. I got busy with my to-do list and gently allowed myself to adapt to the feeling of letting go. It wasn’t something I forced—it just started happening naturally, step by step.

Even the children I looked after helped me prepare—unknowingly! For about two weeks in July, they suddenly went back to listening to Frozen soundtracks on repeat. And out of all the songs, which one do you think kept hitting my ears the most? Of course… “Let It Go.” 😄 We even watched the movie together—and okay, I’ll admit it—it made me cry a little. 💧

But honestly, isn't Frozen kind of a twin flame story?

I feel like I'm Anna—shut out of Elsa’s (my twin’s) life because of her fears. But Anna doesn’t give up on the connection. She trusts it, she keeps going, and in the end, she breaks through the ice with her love. 💖

That scene reminded me: sometimes love doesn’t have to push, it just has to be there, unwavering. And sometimes, you have to step away so the other person can find the courage to open the door themselves.

Thank you for reading!

Until next time ♡